محادثة

بيننا و بين السماء 2 كم لكن ليس كلنا يريد ان يمشي او حتى ان يفتح عينيه!

يا زلمة افتح عينيك و شوفها هايها كريبة
يكفي التجهم في السما يا اخي
ها و شو هاظ تجهم!

procastinate

procrastinate /proʊkr'æstɪneɪt/
procrastinates 3rd person present; procrastinating present participle; procrastinated past tense,past participle
If you procrastinate, you keep leaving things you should do until later, often because you do not want to do them. VERB formal
Most often we procrastinate when faced with something we do not want to do. V
procrastination N-UNCOUNT /proʊkr'æstɪn'eɪʃən/
He hates delay and procrastination in all its forms.

a new word that i just learnt , am using this word almost 10 times a day, i wonder how my life was before i knew it exists. i wonder what things are there waiting for me to explore them and see how my life would change if i knew them .
back to the procastiation, since i got to the architectural school i found it really hard to start working on things specially if the process of thinking is envolved. i would do a cup of coffe, i will fix my room, i will read a book that i bought two years ago , iwill check my facebook three times per minute! hoooo it was pretty hard to start ! for me things were never logical so i decided to run away from logic to feelings and i started to design what feels right and it always turned out o be right, so procastination ... ammm i think i was just procastinating ,...

i was not actually intouch with my inner feelings!

dancer

water and steel wires

nothing was more dazzeling than the horizon line between the sky and the sea. from the series steel bar and water

bits from london

colored matroshka

smart dress!

smart dresses, who would've thought that after smart architectur we would tranform our dresses into smart ! i guess there is smart fever going in the world! no room for stuiped.

what if i filled my life with colors!

طيارة من ورق

اي ولك جينا لهون و بعدين لشو! حتى نحن صرنا سلعة ترويجية اهلا تكنلوجيا!

تانيا

اسمك انت تانيا

ايه لكن من هلا بقا اسمك تانيا

ايه لنو اسهل الفظه هلا

انت نليمة لما عاملة حالك نايمة !

2003 movie i took out from the shelves thinking that i would see Ziad rahbnai or hear some of his songs! at least something as good as good of his plays!

instead see a repetition for something i have seen already in three movies and ziad had a minor part in it. even if they erased his role if would affect the plot! the movie is not bad over all, cinematography and amazing colours. the story is about the Israeli occupation in a durzi village. half of the village belongs to the Lebanese side and the other belongs to the Israeli side and there a huge mine field separating the both sides. women stand on the edge every day shouting at each other with their intimate life details. a situation that a lot Lebanese Palestinian people know it very well. the plot revolves around a girl that is forced to leave to the other side and marry her cousin while she is in love with the Israeli soldier who is ziads friend. the girl hates the boy and tells him that in his face telling him that she is in love with someone else.at the end the girl is sent back to her family.

i was tying to figure out a deeper meaning to the movie or more subtle maybe a bit sarcastic but excuse my low IQ i couldn't.

Reem

i once had a friend named Reem, a sweet girl who was my best friend for a long time. i shared secrets and joy with her, we shared a tiny Little room in irbid. haven't seen her for almost 2 years now and havent talked to her for 4 years. not knowing why and how , not knowing whether it was me to her , but for me it was easier to blame her and put on her, it was easier to say i hate her rather than talking to her about the real problem and sort it out. maybe things would have been different if we just talked.

after a year we meet and we talk, all secrets were revealed and the hurtful words we said are put on the table. she became this beautiful person and wonderful loving, living spirit. she has grown to be a sweet person that i have missed for the past years.

this is a special post for that person and a special welcome to my life.

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i urge a house on the see.... i dream of waves hitting my side of the sea shore. i miss you and i know that i do .. i miss you and i know that i urge you and i have you in my bubble. i miss you and i walk on the street knowing this fact and urging this feeling. i miss you and when this sad and angry lonely feelings hover in my chest i can fee it in my tummy . i miss you and i know i do and i know i will .

هممت بالرحيل لكني فضلت البقاء.ليس لأن سيارتي لم تعد تعمل لكن لأن أقدامي لم تقبل ان ترحل و فضلت البقاء على المشي. لذا القي اللوم عليها لا علي.

school reunion

nostalgia filled me and a the old forgotten memories has overwhelmed my head with the old laughteres and the old times we spent walking down the same passage i used for every second for three years, and when i say three years i mean every second , i was living at the dorms then and this school was the center of my life. now after six years i visit it again, what a weired feeling to be walking in the midst of memories and look at every corner of the big massive structure to find all the hidden memories in the old rusty mind.

6 years meant that 6 generations has passed, what was i thinking when i thought that i might see some of my old colleagues, every one has already moved on and the memories has burned into ashes, everything we had, all the good time is already gone.no matter how hard we cried on our last day and no matter how we tried so hard to document each second of our last year and take pictures for every corner at the end we let dust eat those pictures and we barely speak if we saw each other on the street. human relations are so weired. it is hard to say that but they relate to a concrete space and to a a building more than they relate to human beings, maybe because building dont change and they stay the way they are and humans turn to monsters after they hit 20!

SNOBS

I hate snobs! A snob mean a person who claims to work for the community cares about the community and cares about children and their identity and the way they view Amman would refuse to help another project that serves the same purpose with one difference! It will not have his name on it!

A Marxist snob who claims on top of all that to be a Marxist! And to claim reading the books of marx and to care about prolitaria while in fact he comes down from his pajero or hammer h3 and brag how much the community needs attention ! SNOBS! Communists SNOBS!

Honor crimes

Statistics shows that 25 woman die yearly in Jordan because of honor crime.

An honor crime – fimicide – the act of violence against a relative usually a daughter or a sister for suspicion of losing virginity , even if the case was a rape or abuse or even if the woman was a victim of gossips she will have to pay the price.

in Jordan potential victims ( women ) are jailed ( protective custody ) instead of their predators for their own safety as it is stated in the police reports and will not be released until a male relative signs a paper promising the safety of the woman, yearly 40 women are jailed with no way out or a clear solution for alomost 10 to 15 years!

I googled HONOR CRIMES and all the results that I found was either written by Jordanian bolggers or written about Jordan ! I found this a bit wearied the reasons were either that we are the only ones who can bluntly speak about it or we are the only one who have crime honors! Well I will let you decide! But this act opened the eyes of the Human Rights Watch and recently it asked Jordan to reconsider the Honor crime law in the Jordanian constitution . Jordan responded by stating that this law was canceled and that the decision now in the hand of the house of representatives!

Well of course the law was not canceled as the statement hinted and we still have the law that gives the killer a sentence of 3 months if the crime was committed on a fit of fury base! Well and of course Jordanina men are furious about their honor even if the crime was committed after months from the relative knowing of the sexual act! If it happened in the first place!

This cover for this violent is for a reason and it is covering a certain group and serves a definite reason, men can cover up with this verdict at any case of women disobedience even if it was her only fault is merely existing! or her sharing her brother in the family money !

Such a shame! A shame in a country that acts with all this development and modernization! A country that brags about having a new master plan and new high-rise and a new vision! Such a shame that we still deep inside live in a tribal community!


( a flake dropped from the sky , afraid and shattered, hurt and savataged, the poor flake drops on the ground awaiting to be stepped at and to crushed for the reason that she was dropped! Dropping on a window she felt relived to fall on a safe place, happy to close her eyes and sleep , she never knew that she will not open them again because the sun sentenced her to die, the upper power of justice and warmth has broken her promise to god. A promise stated to protect the flake and nurture her. The glass window wept in silent because his hands were tightened and couldn’t hold it before the flakes melts. Hands tightened by humans)

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وجوده قد يغضب او يبدي اعتراضه او حتى يرفع شكوى او عريضة لكنه يعود الى عقله و يفضل أن ينام!

Popeye and the time of the great depression

First c reated by : Elzie Segan

First published in King Features Syndicate

Don't you find it wired that Popeye
( the famous cartoonish character in America) was created in 1929-the time of the great depression! The perfect time for creating a new icon-aw gaining a huge destructive power by eating only one food ingredient ! Am not really sure if the massage to be addressed here is –come on people you can feed on only ingredient and you will become super strong ! ( a bit socialist I guess! But again we are talking about 1929! ) well any how this marvelous cartoon icon was a part of already published comic strip in 1919 and haven't appeared till 1929 as a minor character and then after the huge success-I suppose because of the economical situation-The character was associated with get rich schemes and moral and social behaviors . until that period he was merely a comic strip in a published magazine. His most evident characteristic was a simple sailor man seeking justice for the common people.!!!!

Of course in 1933 when actually Popeye became a filmic cartoon by fliecher Studios the whole epic story of the delight humble and ( socialist ) character depicting people's struggle at that time has mutated to a horny man following Olivia and fighting Bluto the villain who would steal her from him!

In 1948 –world war 2 Popeye becomes a celebrated soldier who actually joins the Navy and the animation shows him wearing the navy and fighting the Nazis and the Japanese. ( MM I wonder if he would now fight in Iraq!)

Any way telling the story of Popeye and the way it had evolved is like telling a story of the history of the unite-states and economical and political situation sometimes evens its stands towards certain ideologies. But at the current time it only represents consumer ship, entertainment, and the matcho powerful man. A sincere presentation of the utopia the state has created or a simple documentation of existing heterotopias! Am not really sure and I don't think that this the subject of discussion here , things now are much more simpler that it used to be and the whole issue of Mr Popeye invading Japan, Germany or Even Iraq! I bet he prefers to invade the Cartoon Network or more simply Olivia's panties.

Picture by Jeff Koons